firstly there'r some chinese songs i would like to recommend..

jay zhou
- qi li xiang
- jie kou
- ge qian
- yuan you hui

zhang zhi chen
- mo ri zhi lian
- hen xiang ni
- chong fan ji mo

hope u ppl like it.. can d/l from mi oso.. D/ling is PIRACY, is a CRIME! So support ORIGINAL! *applause!*

ytd went to NUH remove stitches cum checkup.. everyting seems fine though.. after 3mths must go back checkup again.. after tat went to paipai wif my mum.. saw an old man outside the temple.. dunno y he was there. he was in those kind of ambulance bed lor. so crowded n smoke was all over.. he shouldnt b there lor or atleast in an oxygen mask or sumthing rite? hmm.. though i'm free tinker but still prayed for safety, maybe if can, bless mi find a nice gf, etc.. haha, no harm mah..

2day sch was a short day. so went suntec walk walk wif weiwei n chong.. ate subway food.. 1st time sia, tink not bad la. then weiwei jio watch 'collateral'. it was long since the last time i caught a show so i agree. enjoyed abit la.. out of 10 i gave tat show a 5.. not really gd tat show but was kinda funny.. keke.. then chong n weiwei bought their shirt for the coming presentation they have.

while walking n lazing ard suntec, some lame question struck me. *argh.. fall dead.. jk.. the question was wat will happen when i'm old.. there's 1 humji thing for sure tat i noe abt mi. i'm afraid of death.. hahaz.. dun wan so fast die leh, so many tings haven do, etc.. but then live too long later got all sort of illnesses.. then u'll b tinking heaven must b torturing u. maybe die earlier better hor? i tink tat sometimes life seems so simple but yet so complicated. u nv noe wat's coming.. like wat happened to me.. 2mths lungs collasped 3 times.. i was tinking, "wat the heck? critical damage. oh my god, oh my buddha.. !@#$%^&*". like playing game then got own by ppl continuously.. it was painful n i was sad but i dunno y i din cry. not saying im strong not wat cos honestly i'm not strong neither emotionally or physically. i tink life still has to go on n it did..

next found tat i'm finally back in sch again.. missed 3 labs for each of the subjects n 1 quiz.. then in 2 weeks time lab tests r coming. damn it man. so many things to handle but i just cant b bothered.. but everything was 1 shot all pouring on me like buckets of water.. so stressful sia. plus fyp haven started doing yet.. dunno how sia.. T.T Now life again was like b4.. wat should i say.. only 1 word to describe, scheduled.. do tis, do tis, do tat.. blah blah blah.. wtf man.. only 1 thing tat's gd tat is time passed by kinda fast. but it bring me nearer n nearer to exams, to my fyp deadline, to my bday (911), to old age.. tis r some of the bad things happening now..argh.. i going under man.. y yr3 like tat.. so suay, so screwed up, so unbelievable, so fucked up! most imptly yr3 sux!! !@#$%^&* to tis yr man..

sometimes when i started tinking abt ppl like my frens which i tink i only got a few.. life seems abit better wif them ard "except sch life". tis leads me tink of jiaqian aka milk(energy). i'm not familiar wif him but all tis mths knowing tis guy, felt tat he makes a gd fren. alvin was a nice fren too but crapping all the time, always say himeself handsome -.- yip leh.. needless to say.. he's always there. still got alot, cant list out all. and sadly reminds me of weiliang. saw him lately on sunday. frankly he had always been a very gd fren indeed who really put frens in the 1st place. it was all my fault last time. last time i was childish 2 the xtreme. take words n things too hard. Or else we wun b like tat le ba. haiz, feel abit guilty oso. i was tinking tat we'r all grown-up ppl, some things we should forgive n forget. but maybe sometings we really cant ba. or maybe i wasnt worth having tat chance. there's no turning back now not even a red light for ya 2 stop. u just kept accelerating like a car as if the brakes were spoilt. i still remembered tat time he n zion quarrelled. he was ignoring zion. i was so sad tat time n so was zion. i dun wan him to ignore zion lor. zion needed him badly. i tried to help though i noe its useless. i wasnt even a fren to him tat time i tink. i cried n cried for 3days in sch or at home. dunno for wat. morever i dun wan zion to feel wat i felt b4 lor. i asked yip 4 help. but dunno wat happened, weiliang suddenly walk out of our lifes. gone.. MIA.. he's a fren to treasure, a true fren but i just din noticed until he left. T.T

then u always heard ppl said tat they'r slackers themselves.. but i'm diff.. in sch i was told tat i slacked too much.. my frens asked me buckle up all tat.. maybe i'm really a slacker ba.. anyway, they men no harm so i dun blame them actually. i really started some changes in me. i started doing tutorials b4 hand all tat but my health problem pulled me down alot.. i was beginning to tink tat i'm far behind now.. way too far behind.. T.T so many things to handle.. wondering if things can b like in the matrix.. use the hp then shout, "OPERATOR, I NEED AN EXIT!".. then u picked up a public phone n "poof!".. u disappeared.. got into another place, escaped from troubles..

going to end now.. once again.. !@#$%^&* to tis yr.. tis is jackson.. checking out..