very boring day but heng i d/led some jap anime n copy some shows from yip's hdd to my com.. tis few days had been relying on these shows to kill time.. it really helped alot.. lolx.. but today i finished watching the very last 1 liao.. now d/ling new 1.. 2days le d/l till 47% only, so slow.. still hav to d/l a date wif a vampire 3 leh.. sian man.. dunno y i still not playing my games like dota. then my mum still dun let me go out yet, nid to wait for 2 more days. holidays going to end le, 3weeks wasted just like tat. nv enjoy.. *sigh

tinking alot lately too n felt i getting more evil le.. eh really leh.. dunno y, die le die le.. like sometimes gd guy sometimes bad guy.. i really not acting in front of ppl leh, just sometimes my way of thinking just changed suddenly.. but there were oso times tat i kicked out tat evil thoughts. must have discipline sia. but 1 thing for sure is tat i m really not a forgiving person. i can forget those bad things ppl did to me n b friendly wif them doesnt mean i forgave them.. tats me la.. but so far those ppl i still treat them quite gd la unless they 'harm' me again or wat ba. but there was a few times i just c tat person not happy lor. dunno get it y then i just say something bad wif hidden meanings lor. hope u ppl noe wat i toking abt. i very bad hor.. hmm i tink so too cos i habour evil thoughts.. eh m i really tat bad?

then i tinking those ppl sometimes said 不要讲别人，你自己也好不到那里。i sometimes oso like tat say ppl but me leh? oso not gd until where mah.. sometimes i wanna shoot ppl then like tat say, sometimes i wanna help ppl then like tat say. can b gd, can b bad. but if its for goodness, saying tat oso doesnt mean ourself very gd mah, y we tink we got the right to tok to ppl like tat.. thinking of tis makes me very confused.. its like saying tat sentence w/o tinking or hesitation as if ourself very gd like tat.. then oso hurt ppl's feelings.. *sigh

stay at home too many days liao, felt like i lost communication wif the outside world n my frens.. haha wierd tinking.. n oso dunno when my unlucky streak will end.. though the bad things happening now arent as bad as b4 but sad to say tat they were still bad things.. hope it end soon.. 3 mths liao leh still torture me not enuff mah? maybe i have really been wat i said just now, an evil person ba. then maybe heaven wanna punish me for habouring evil thoughts ba.

i tired le.. gtg slp.. tmr is a new day..