Thursday, December 09, 2004
reflections
its late now, i cant slp i tink. 2day went back to SP, i felt great going back even though it was just a 1hr briefing. ate at sch too, everything's just so nice n cheap. hmm, tink starting from nx week most probably going to b bz le.. attachement starts, holidays gone. left a few more days of holidays. some frens already sch reopened, some haven but were working. hardly c most of them. went to watch "alexander" wif ber 2day.. its a M-18 show, i bought the tickets then i realised. i gave it a 6/10 cos abit boring other than the fighting part. new shows coming up but just wanna watch a few tat i like. nid to save up man.
hmm, last yr le.. i finally show a slightly better grade on my result slip. but still din study hard n understand enuff. but in the examination room i give it all liao cos i din forget wat i studied.. all throw in the paper. oso the 1st time i studied for so long. i started early, not like last time everything last min. i tink wat my supervisor told me was very true n rite.. students always chose to study last min, u might memorised everything, ans every single ans, got everything rite, score gd grades. but tat doesnt mean u noe everything, understand everything.. in the end u din learn anything, maybe u learnt a little but i m pretty sure u dun got it all.
i tink i m like those typical ppl chiong last min work 1 until i came to poly.. then i started to try to study earlier than b4. but still always aim for a pass. sometimes i wonder.. is tis all i can get? i nv aim high.. always nv.. until tis final exam i tried harder, i wanna get more than a pass. C+ might b a lousy grade to u ppl but i indeed got better than last time even though its just 1 subject only. who noes so suay, grading system changed then my grade must drop down 1 lvl. but still too late ba if i realised earlier my results would have been better i purposed. who noes?
sometimes whether u passed or u failed, i tink more or less u should noe it yurself cos u were the only one tat noes whether did u really study or not.. any effort put in or not.. only u noe it. talking abt tis, there were actually 1 kinda ppl i dun like. i tink i m not in tis category ba or maybe i m in.. its up 2 u ppl to judge me, i dunno.. they were those ppl who got sad when they fail n they noe they din study or din bother to study. they will at there saying they worried abt exams then at the other time u found them lazing ard, playing, etc. wth is tis man. if u really do worried, u'll surely do something abt it n stop those crap worrying, lazing n play! eh pls la, action speaks loudly than words. do it dun just say, wat for? say for fuck only itz? if yes, dun give ppl sad look when u failed. i dun tink those ppl should even felt sad inside them since they had already made the choice b4 the exams. they noe why they made tat choice, they noe wats the problem wif them n they surely noe the solution to the problem. but they dun do anything abt it. then wth did they get sad abt rite? tis ppl just sucked! NO! they sucked BIG TIME!
spoke at : 12/09/2004 01:15:00 AM